LAST DAY! for JAckpot June

This is a big one! Today is a Goodie Box day! Get a box filled with popular products at 50% or more off of retail value. Plus you'll get a deal on shipping/handling. Purchase this Goodie Box (retail value $300 US / $352.95 CAN) for only $125 US/ $146.95 CAN. Buy now! This offer is while supplies last and will be snatched up quickly.

TheScrapaholic's Card Sketch! # 29

Pour Your heart out

I came across this blog from Peaceful Divas blog. Her post today really hit home. She had a link to "pour your heart out" and I really like the fact of being able to share things, though I'm really not much of a fan of sharing my "personal side of life" not even with some of my closets friends or even family members. Its not an easy task for me, I guess i learned it at a very young age to just "bottle it up", "let it roll of your  back", "life's not fair, so live with it". I don't know who came up with those "sayings" but really they are not helpful, even though i often say them myself. Anyways, to see how this "pour your heart out" works. Please visit "Things I can't say" blog 

I'm gonna pour my heart out. or maybe just babble away and gripe, moan and complain! whatever you want to call it, take it for what its worth, probably nothing.

I woke up this morning exhausted from another sleepless night. Did my same routine, tossed and turned in bed thinking I really just want more sleep but after about 15 min. i know i'm up, thats it just get your ass out of bed. So, i roll one more time, I read my wall "serenity Prayer" that i cut out of vinyl and i read it every moring. Well, i tell you lately, i don't feel there is anything i can "change" in my life or that even "God" can or wants to "change" (if i make it to heaven, He & I will be having a very long conversation, I guess its good that time there is eternal). So i mumbled my way downstairs, made my coffee, as it brewed signed into my FB, Blog, emails, and so on. Got my coffee made to my liking and sat down and started networking, catching up and so on. THinking what do i want to do today. I got to catch up with an old friend, which was great!
Anyways,  I am blessed with a few family members who I cherish beyond words can say or i could even express to them. Friends that i never expected the support i get, i mean friends i know pretty well, but haven't even met in person! (ok  a few i have met in person once or twice and a few are good friends) and Don't get me wrong I am so thankful for all of them and all their love and support they give me beyond what i can express.  Its those that make me feel like crap, or think i'm just looking for sympathy or pity or think i can "change" my life, that i am the one to blame for where life has landed me. NO!, I just want understanding from my point of view. While i did make a decision, but i am not the one who injured myself! While trusting a Doctor may have been a mistake, but its not one i knew at the time. Maybe yes, i am suppose to "forgive" and "forget" (yeah ok like i'm ever going to be able to forget).  I just can't, i'm not ready! Nor do I see how "forgiving" is ever going to "solve" my issue. my world has been flipped upside down and yes, i know others have it way worse off than me, but that doesn't make me feel all so warm and fuzzy and take away my pain or heartaches.  It doesn't make it easier for me to tie my shoes w/out either tears of pain or humiliation to ask my kids (or someone else) to tie them for me, or to give my kids a 2 armed hug like they deserve and i want to, no we do "air hugs" because my kids are afraid to hurt mom if they actually hug me! While, every day i get up and out of bed i would rather just lie there and dream of how life use to be. That my husband would share his worries with me more and not feel like he putting more burden on me or add more stress. I want to take his burdens off of him and hes too busy trying to do it for me.
I dream of days when i could go to the store by myself and not have to worry about someone bumping into me, or being able to push my carriage instead of having to pull it, to go to an amusement park and ride the rollercoasters, going to work and punching the clock and griping that i'm over worked and under paid, cutting my own food, signing my name with my right hand, drawing and painting, holding something in my right hand w/out worrying will my hand just give out, to do anythings w/out pain. I miss people asking me "how are you", instead of "how is your arm", while i know usually when asked how i am usually is answered in relation to my arm because my mood is reflected by the level of pain and frustration i'm in or lack of sleep i got because of it. While many don't realise that they are even saying it, they do and they mean no harm by it, i know. it just frustrates me somedays more than others.
   The simplest things in life are no longer simple and i'm just plain out right pissed off about it! I'm pissed about how the world judges me! I'm pissed that the world has sympathy for serial murders or rapist because oh their childhood was horrible, so what mine wasn't all cookies and cream with whip cream and cherries on top either but i didn't kill anyone or hurt anyone, as a matter of fact i didn't break any laws over and over again. It pisses me off that the world just doesn't really take the time anymore and look at people around them. It pisses me off that for years i paid my taxes w/no complaints, but when i need to apply for benefits because i truly need them, i get denied, while jailbird druggies get approved!  It pisses me off when i call lawyers to get help (like Binder & Binder) they tell me my husband makes too much money(really? what that has nothing to do with disability), I didn't work enough (really? i'm sorry but i still paid into the system and it even says you didn't ever have to pay into the system to get disability), I didn't make enough money for them to take the case! Oh but people like Octo-Mom gets all sorts of benefits and she put herself there, she chose to have all those kids and NOT work, or get married but to live off you & me along with many many many other people who have never worked, paid taxes, hell are even citizens of the US! It pisses me off even more!  It pisses me off how this has changed me as a person! I'm angry all the time, i have no patience anymore and i'm just meaner than ever and really would just love to stay in bed by myself and not talk to anyone (most days)! It pisses me off that i have to even ask for help, nevermind that it pisses me off that people say i don't deserve it. Well, there are many that truly don't "deserve" the financial help and they get it and i believe their are "equal rights". Well, i've learned the hard way there are NO EQUAL RIGHTS in this country. Theres Equal opportunity to find a Lawyer to get you your rights, but damn it you better be worth it so really there isnt even the equal opportunity!
 Just yesterday we went to Wendy's for lunch w/the kids and when we walked in there was 2 boys probably 5or6 and 7or 8 rough housing around and jsut not paying attention to anyone around them, nor were the adults with them. While my husband and kids were trying to gaurd me and they were still getting close to me. My husband said "watch your arm" and me I said loudly "if i get hit, I hit back, I don't care if their kids or not".  Well, one of the adults finally tried to reign them in and the rest gave me a nasty look.  Well, I wasn't sorry for what i said and i really meant it, i am saddened that i have to be put into the situation to have to say it, cause asking someone to have their kids behave jsut get you laughs and not good ones either! I've had kids ram into me not by an accidental bump but because they are rough housing in public, (like its thier living room and i don't matter i should move out of their way) and spent the next week in extreme pain and on my pain meds (that i hate taking and could literally write a book about) and just basically in bed because when its that bad i can't function at all.  Really, its not too much to ask for your kids to behave while in stores, resturaunts and yes even in line at amusement parks or even adults. Just cause you can't see my injury doesn't mean its not there. You just never know what the people around you are dealing with just being out there in public.  Even before my injury i always had issue with that type of behavior and the whole "personal space" thing. I'm very outspoken about it more now in public and while i could be nicer about it, i see it as you didn't respect my space or me so why should i give you respect. I may have always said "treat others as you want to be treated" and I've always done so, now i'm just not as polite about it, i am just down right as rude as you.
 While "society" as a whole i think has lost its moral compass, compassion, respect, and the basic of whats right and wrong, etc.  Individuals have NOT. But its taking that 2 seconds to get out of "Me, Myself and I" mode and look whats around you.

well, thanks for letting me share a little bit of "my personal life" with you and babble in probably no sense at all. it felt good to "pour my heart out", though i'm still pissed :) someday i hope to get past it! I hope i didn't scare anyone away!

so now back to our regular programming ....Papercrafting!

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Scrapbooking Layout Sketch # 24 double page

Card Sketch! by The Scrapoholic # 28

Layout Sketch # 23 Scrapbooking!

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Paper Craftorium Blog Hop!

Design Star Challenge - Outdoorsman

So remember the Design Star challenge i posted a couple days ago? Is anyone interested in doing the challenge? 
Well, while Direct Tv was here yesterday for 2 1/2 hrs fixing my satellite, which has taken me 2 yrs to get done! and I was completly right where the problem was! the person who installed it didn't do it right! WOW! what a difference! anyways, i played around with July CTMH STOM set and "passages" Level 2 paperpack, which to me said "outdoorsman" and i created these 4 cute cards! The blue and yelllow harquein print is from "splendor" and the green polk a dot is from bella? (i think?). I inked all the edges of papers and card bases in "chocolate" ink. I stamped the lil bugger in "chocolate" ink on colored watercolor paper and used my blending pen w/ "chocolate" ink to color in the body. I used "Crystal Blue", Star Spangled Blue", and "ocean" colored CTMH markers for the balloons. only the cranberry grossgrain ribbon is from CTMH the rest are scraps of other brands

Layout Sketch # 22

card sketches # 27 by thescrapaholic

Design Star Challenge

I finally got a chance to watch Design stars from last week online

because Direct tv was pixalated on every one i DVR'd! (ugh!) Michael Moeller is my absolute favorite! Ok so I'm biased cause i know him! But he's such a FuN guy how can you not love him! So thru the whole show, besides being anooyed by someone i won't mention! All I could think was oh this would be a fun Scrapbooking challenge! The challenge is make a layout, card or project inspired from one of the outfits. Post your creation in the link below and be entered into the drawing to win a Flip Flop Book!

watch the episode here:   hgtv-design-star6/  
the outfits are shown within the first few minutes, so you don't have to watch the whole episode! Be sure to say which "outfit" inspired you!  

There will be a winner in each of these categories:
1. Layout
2. Card
3. Project (altered or 3-D item)

Add your link below so we can see! Contest will be open for 2 weeks to post your project July 11this the deadline and then for a week later we will have voting from our Scrapoholics! to decide the winner!! Sure hope you'll enter!

Scrapbooking Layout sketch TheScrapoholic # 21

This is the layout sketch i used for the layout of my daughter in her bathing suit!

Card Sketch! by The Scrapaholic # 26

Another card sketch! Yes, it has circles in it! :O  i jsut can't help myself! I am way into circles lately! oh and flowers too my other obsession! Tough circles have been winning lately!

Layouts from my Sketches

I did 2 layouts yesterday from my sketches! I think they came out cute if I say so my self! :)

This one is my favorite! and the lil chipboard with Fashion Tips I thought was so fitting!

Scrapbook Layout sketch TheScrapoholic # 20

Heres a one page Layout!

Card Sketch! by The Scrapaholic # 25

Day of card sketches! Hope your having fun with them!

Jackpot June! + incentive

Today is another Goody box offer for the Jackpot June!

Get a box filled with popular products at 50% or more off of retail value. Plus you'll get a deal on shipping/handling. Purchase this Goodie Box (retail value $80 US / $93.95 CAN) for only $40 US/ $46.95 CAN. Buy now! This offer is while supplies last and will be snatched up quickly.

Another Giveaway I'm doing is if you make a purchase thru my CTMH website between today and the 30th (doesn't have to be a Jackpot purchase and no min. order $ amount) you will receive a Great "Thank You" gift from me! including some cute stamped images!

growing by leaps and bounds!

WOW! i have 82 Scrapoholics following me on my Blog! and 477 Scrapoholics following me on Facebook! Over 300 following me on Twitter!  I feel so blessed! I've grown alot over the past few weeks! THANK YOU!

I have a referal giveaway going on at my Facebook page.  If your not a follower yet you can follow me now and be added in that drawing!

However, i know there are those who are just bloggers and don't do facebook and/or twitter! So for my Scrapoholic Bloggers, I will do the same drawing!   Grab and post my badge on your blog or MAke a post about my blog as a referral and leave a link below to your blog and post a comment.  Be sure to tell your friends to post a comment that they are a new follower and that "you" referred them so both your names go in the drawing.

So, if you refer 10 people and 8 "follow" me and post you referred them, their name will go in the drawing once and your name will go in 8 times. They can then do the same and send out referrals!

Here are the 4 sets of cards. So, there will be 4 winners! 1 for each set!  The referral will go to the 30th and I will announce the winner on July 1st.

Set 1

Set 2

Set 3

Set 4

Eiffel Tower Paint can!

My daughter helped me make this adorable Eiffel Tower paint can for her BFF!
It came out quite cute. We or should i say her still needs to add tied ribbon to the handle.
I created a border of Eiffel Towers in MTC! to fit around most of the can. Of course the can is 12 3/4" and scrapbook paper only comes in 12", i know somewhere there is a limited selection of longer paper. Any case here are the pictures since i know thats what you want to see and not me babbling away.

The plain pink swirled paper

The Paper Got Stickled

The Eiffel Tower border added

Another view

Added Stickled lil hearts too

The top lid

Layout sketch TheScrapoholic # 19

Wow! A week already! Only feels like a couple days!

 add your finished layout

card sketches # 24 by thescrapoholic

Another one made in Paint! I do find it a bit easier in paint sometimes than hand drawing the card sketches.
If your a cardmaker I am wondering do you like measurements in sketches? I know alot of scrapbookers do but honestly never thought of it til yesterday when i was editing my picture.

I thought these were a fun and bright color combo for a summer fun look? Remember you don't have to stick to my color combos or to the sketch, its not etched in stone! Thank God we have paper and pencils with erasers! i couldn't image what an artist did in the stone age etching all that into stone!

Add yours below!

Jackpot June!

Today is a Goodie Box day! Get a box filled with popular products at 50% or more off of retail value. Plus you'll get a deal on shipping/handling. Purchase this Goodie Box (retail value $120 US / $140.95 CAN) for only $60 US/ $70.50 CAN. Buy now! This offer is while supplies last and will be snatched up quickly.

Layout sketch TheScrapoholic # 18

Heres the layout for today!

Post a link to your layout!

Card Sketch! by The Scrapoholic # 23

I think we are day 6? Busy morning this morning for! Exciting one though! this one i did in "paint" its fun to do them in there too!

again add your link to your creation of this sketch below!  I love i figured this linky thing out!! :)  I hope to start seeing people share ?  don't be shy!

Just when i started to think i smelled ....

:) I woke up and did my facebook thing and then off to do my blog thing! Wow! i was feeling kinda down lately with just general things you know those slumps we go thru in life on that rollercoaster ride! Thinking maybe i smell and evryone's staying away or maybe i opened my big mouth and said something i shouldn't have and offended someone or everyone?  Anyways, I was featured on Paper Craftorium blog and it made my heart smile!  Isn't it amazing how you feel when somone reconizes you! I'll be on cloud 9 all day! Thanks!!

So in honor of being reconized, I want to share that Joy too with those that inspire me! Here are 5 of my favorite blogs i go to on a regular basis, though i go to so many more. I've added a place below to add your blog too!  Pay it Forward Blog Feature! Wanna play along? Do the same on your blog too! Though i recommend calling it Pay it forward Blog Feature and not "I think i smell" :) i mean unless you do?! :p

Lat Creator Blog

Susan de Crafter Blog

Paper Crafts by Candace

Luv my gypsy blog

Anelene Blog

Robotz Sayings! MTC File

I almost forgot to share my file!! There is also the say "OH Sprockets" not pictured!

Collection of Robotz Sayings

Sympathy and Thinking of You Cards

I needed to make 2 sympathy cards and 2 Think of you cards. I saw this stamp and thought he looked sad but in a cute way. It is from next mOnths (JULY) SOTM (stamp of the month) set "Happy Forever". I used CTMH Creative Basics "Cherry-O" collection paper. I used CTMH Sorbet ric rac and cranberry grossgrain ribbon. I used nestabilities in the CTMH key lime card stock